When all it does is play back again and agian, when you can't feel yourself, only within.  all you see is it all coming back.  will you ever escape?  Can this kind of thing be erased?  my darkest secret, my deepest pain.  It has excaped my breath to one's ears only.  and she's hardly the person I once knew her to be.  Such has been imposed upon others I'm sure, but so yong? so violent? so violating?  The pain that feels as though you are so vulnerable, breathing out would leave you  cold forever.  Leaves you so naked, all you want to do is disperse and feel empty.  Leaves you so full of emotion that you turn it into the one thing you know best, your own fear.  you seek what hurts you, to feel the numbness that so habitually surrounds you  these days.  The instinctive feeling you  force yourself tp when you have too much inside to think about.  Turn it into nothing.  Turn yourself away.  And thus we are slowly fading.